Turning Points

Somewhere between 3 and 3 and a half months, Lily has made many turns for the better. She will easily take a bottle from a select few people (I made the mistake of having someone watch her who hadn't before and Lily refused it from her, but she will take it from Nelson, my mom, and the ladies at mom's day out). She also is content now without being held all the time and with other people besides me (the same people from which she will take a bottle). This is huge for me and for us as a family. Our days are no longer marked by what seems like endless crying but instead with Tripp making Lily smile and laugh. Of course the days are still crazy, especially when they both have rough days at the same time (which is usually how it goes) but at least we are making progress. In all honesty, I think one of the best things for our schedule was me going back to work. It was kinda terrible in other ways, but now that Lily is doing better, we are all in a much better routine.

I would say that probably from months 2 till now have been some of the hardest of my life. It was not the going from one to two kids that was the hardest per se (like the physical ability to care for them both) but more the fact that Lily has been pretty demanding and Tripp really started to struggle then with adjusting to her being here permanently. Everyday is still hard- I am trying to be patient, loving, etc all while not getting much sleep (we are still working on getting Lily back on a normal schedule after getting all messed up from the days of not taking a bottle). I really have felt God's presence in my life- he gives me strength for each day and grace to not completely lose my patience on a daily basis!

Being back at work has also given me the breath of fresh air that I need on some days. I sometimes think that maybe I would not like to work and to stay home all the time. But then I go to work and I remember why I like being there and why I like working. It gives me a much needed break and allows me to use my brain in a different way.

I am looking forward to what is in store for the next couple of months!!