It's been more than a year that Tripp's been with us but tonight things just kinda hit me. He is spending the night at my parent's house and it is so weird to be home without him here. It is weird to think that nights like tonight without him here were our old normal. I really can't even remember what that was like. It is so weird to think that I will not see him for about 24 hours. It's weird to think that I will actually have to set an alarm tomorrow morning and that I will take a shower without a little face peering around the shower curtain to check in and see what is going on. It is weird to think how much our lives have changed so much in one short year. Nelson and I went on a date to the bookstore after we dropped Tripp off with my folks and it felt so good to just sit and read a magazine. and I caught myself just randomly looking up from my magazine to look at Nelson and remember how much I love being with him. Which is something that I have forgotten way too often after having Tripp. I also far too often "forget" (or really just let tiredness or my own selfishness get in the way) to treat him with respect. It is really easy for me to get absorbed with the fact that I no longer get to just up and leave and go somewhere, or that I can't take a nap for as long as I want to or sleep in as late as I want to. In fact, it wasn't that long ago that I was talking with my parents about how awesome being an empty-nester sounded and another time with a friend about how having a kid really rocked my world. But then I realize how much I love that little guy and wouldn't trade him for the longest nap in the world or to even be able to sleep in everyday again. He brings an unspeakable joy into our lives and even though our lives are rocked forever, they are rocked in an amazing way.
P.S. Little Bug- Most people get things stuck in their teeth when they are eating dinner. But you my friend, have something stuck on your shoulder. And I am pretty sure you put it there on purpose.
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